Don't you ever wonder what being an adult is all about? As a child you don't really care about anything but having fun but as a teenager all you ever want to do is be an adult. But for what? I still wish I could be a child and not have to assume all these responsibilities. That life would stay still in time and I could be young forever. That I would never see my parents grow old, and die. To know that I will always be taken care of no matter what.
This is where my fear lies.
I am so scared to grow up. I don't want my life to change. And is sad to know that it must so that I can be my own person and start my own family. But rooted deeply in my thoughts is my anxiety of adulthood. This fear that controls me, that frightens me to the point where I can't sleep.
I know that this is life, that everything happens for a reason. But right now I'm just having a hard time trying to figure out who I'm supposed to be.
