Venting.

Don't you ever wonder what being an adult is all about? As a child you don't really care about anything but having fun but as a teenager all you ever want to do is be an adult. But for what? I still wish I could be a child and not have to assume all these responsibilities. That life would stay still in time and I could be young forever. That I would never see my parents grow old, and die. To know that I will always be taken care of no matter what.

This is where my fear lies.

I am so scared to grow up. I don't want my life to change. And is sad to know that it must so that I can be my own person and start my own family. But rooted deeply in my thoughts is my anxiety of adulthood. This fear that controls me, that frightens me to the point where I can't sleep.
I know that this is life, that everything happens for a reason. But right now I'm just having a hard time trying to figure out who I'm supposed to be.

A gloomy day

Yesterday morning I received the horrible news that my cat had passed away. I've had pets die before but this cat, my cat was something special. He was the first cat that we picked ourselves, that lived inside and gave us all the love he could. He would play with my hair and read books with me, he would even surf the internet with me while sitting on my lap. He brought our family closer and completed our picture.

My family buried him under a big tree in my backyard. Where he can rest peacefully and still be near us. I know that God has a plan and that was my cat's plan to bring joy to our hearts. I know that he is in a better place now chasing bugs and eating catnip, waiting until we meet again.
I love you my dearest kitty, my dearest boy, rest in peace, see you later!

:')

-E

Dear to my heart

I wrote this a month ago just to express what God means to me. It also has a title! :)
Enjoy,

Love in Return

The way you love me,

The warmth in your presence
You don’t know me
But yet you adore me

You died for my life,

You died for my soul,
You gave me something
That I can never return

Since the day I was born,

I was filled with your love
You gave me happiness to enjoy
You gave me pain to endure

You’ve been with me all along,

guiding my steps through triumphs
 and challenges
taught me life lessons to stay strong

I am grateful, I am blessed
I am your child full of grace
I am yours forever
Til the end of time
When the universe subsides
And your love still satisfies

Until we get to meet

Up on heavens streets
Until then, my love for you will
Never cease.

-E

Flowers Galore!

Pictures taken by my previous camera. I'm not a photography expert but I think these pictures are pretty awesome. These were taken my senior year of high school in my art class. My concentration was flowers, mainly sunflowers. I can't wait until I can continue and develop more of my artistic side. Enjoy, more pictures to come later, :)


-E

Look what Inspiration causes..

Today I decided that I wanted to replace my old broken camera for a new one. It's been almost five months that I hadn't been able to take pictures. Not that I took pictures all the time but just having the option was nice. I finally made the decision because lately I have had incredible amount of inspiration to just be creative. I don't know where exactly this is coming from but I want to do something about it.(Plus, also share the pictures on here.) :)

So just in case you are wondering, I will post more of my poems and plenty of pictures. ( Once I get a camera of course.) I may also possibly start drawing again and post some of that too. And with the semester coming to an end I will have a lot of more free time! Yay,


-E

A little piece of cat

I wanted to share the a picture of my beloved cat when he was a little baby. Now he's a teenage cat and wants to be the man(cat) of the house. Isn't he the cutest?

Guess what I found!

So instead of studying for my econ test I decided to look through the files on my computer. I found this neat poem I wrote about a year ago and I would like to share it with yall. I keep re-reading it and it sort of reminds me of Dr. Seuss and the way he wrote his rhymes. Not that I'm comparing myself to him but.. Just read it and tell me what you think, or not, or whatever. :) Enjoy.
p.s. I'm not the best poet but I think I have some poet potential.
p.p.s This poem is also fiction and I don't remember what gave me the inspiration. ( It also doesn't have a title, oops.)

Remember that day,

We were eleven,

Small, young and in love,

We promised we would be,

Together,

Together in center, and in love.

But you left at the age of

Fourteen,

Left me alone, alone to be.

I slept with that sweater

You gave me that last

September.

For years after you left I slept with

That sweater,

That green faded sweater,

The one you gave me,

For my birthday,

Do you remember? You do remember.

That November you left,

You left to that place,

That place far away,

Never to see your face,

You went into the ground.

Buried deeply with no sound,

Buried with love, my love,

So deep in the ground.

For I’m in love still with you,

My love, for I promised you.

That we would be in love,

 Together,

Together,

In center, and for forever.